softcrunchymom

Yesterday, I had to leave my son’s play date because I was getting a slew of work e-mails that I needed to go home to handle.  I called my husband crying in the car.  The other mom’s were expressing the desire to contribute and have human interaction and I just hate it.  If given the choice I would gladly stay home and not work with my son.  The first three months of his life, were some of the happiest of my life and I wouldn’t give them up for anything.  We started talking about the grass being greener on the other side and it really is true.  Some days I’m thankful for the opportunities I have in my job, it challenges me and I get to use the degrees I spent so many years earning but I would love the chance to not have to worry about work during the day with my son.  It taints our time together, be it phone calls from my boss in the middle of a diaper change, or sending out e-mails while I’m breastfeeding.  Maybe I’m not great at compartmentalizing work and home life, but when you work from home, how can you do that?